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Thursday, February 28, 2013

UUUUGGGGH: Pregnant AND the 24 hour flu!

I passed the glucose gestational diabetes test! YAY! But I mean, really, if they're gonna make you ingest 50 grams of sugar for a blood test, why can't it be cake? Mmmmm, cake.

I had a rough couple days starting on Tuesday, Squirt. I hope you were okay in there. Felt like you were because you kept bumping me! Tuesday afternoon I had a toe charlie horse. A TOE charlie horse. Who gets that? Obviously I needed some more water or something because this girl got one. That evening my belly and low back were significantly uncomfortable but not agonizing to the point of going to the hospital. We went to bed around 8pm but by 10pm, I was still uncomfortable and considered getting Jason up to go to the hospital. I talked myself off the ledge because really I knew I was okay. Getting everyone up would be such an ordeal when it wasn't an absolute emergency. I got ready to take a warm bath instead. One step away from dipping my big toe into the water and had to run to the bathroom. ALLLLL of dinner came back up. I puked so hard little blood vessels broke around my eyes. I puked about three more times before I knew it was over. I usually always cry when I puke for real. It just sucks. (Morning sickness crying? That shit is just annoying.)

Jason woke up and came in, brought me my robe to keep me warm,  I got into the tub and he went back to bed telling me to call for him if I needed anything. Who knows how long I stayed in the tub. I walked slowly to my phone around midnight to text for a sub for STRIKE! Wednesday morning. I knew there was no way I'd be able to STRIKE! it up. I crawled back into bed, sipped water all night, and slept like hell. I woke up around the time Talon started babbling at 6:30am and realized I had to tell Jason I was not okay. There was no way I was going to be able to be home alone with Talon all day. We started running through ideas for what to do...Jason go to work, I call the doctor, I call Jason later to take me to the doctor. Then, I puked again AND I peed myself. I have no shame. I fucking peed myself. 

Jason put in for a sub. I'd been having stomach pains from an empty stomach so I knew I needed to eat something to soak up the acid. Two piece of white bread. Jason said to Talon, "Okay, Buddy, you're coming to school with me so I can tell the sub what to do while Mommy rests!" You know it's bad when you have to tell your husband he can't go to work that day because you are too sick to stand up.


I stayed in bed mostly all day (expect to get a banana) until about 5:30p when I finally felt decent enough to get up and take another bath to rinse off the ick. Jason brought me some Gatorade and another piece of bread. I managed to sift between aches and Braxton Hicks to take some Tylenol. What a difference that made! Nurse Lori called me back and said to take it easy and keep pushing fluid since I didn't have a fever, continued to vomit or diaherra. I busted out the Prenatal Cradle to help support my belly which I haven't taken off since. We all had Cream of Wheat for dinner. Talon had slept from 2:30-5:30p but he went back to bed around 8:00p just after dinner.

We watched an episode of SMASH in bed then it was back to bed for us around 9pm. We're all better today!


Monday, February 25, 2013

Glucose Test Time!

26 weeks and 5 days. I went in today after I drank that gawd-awful glucose drink to test for gestational diabetes. Shit has 50 grams of pure fake orange flavored sugar. BLECH! PFFT PFFFFFT ICKPHOOEY! I mean, come on, if I'm going to consume 50 grams of sugar, couldn't it be cake??

My c-section should be scheduled this week tentatively for May 23rd. I'll go in the day before for a blood draw and to do paperwork then locked and loaded ready for surgery!

You are measuring ahead, Baby. Your brother did too. Despite the actual countdown, you measured at 29 weeks. Dr. Heather said we'll watch things and just perhaps I'll be looking at a 9 pounder. Talon wasn't too far behind 9 pounds! (8lbs 12.8oz) The nurses helped me find your little butt and head. She said "Feel for the two hard places." You are head down, butt up and all curled around like a baby cinnamon roll. Cinnamon rolls might be sweet but you sure do do a lot of punching! :)

I've been getting a tight belly a lot lately which they weren't too concerned about but reminded me to listen to my body. Round ligament pain or Braxton Hicks? I think a little bit of both. She didn't cut me off of teaching classes but if I start to feel any pain or pressure to simply back off and coach. I got to 32 weeks with Talon and had to stop teaching mainly because the edema in my ankles made walking so unbearably uncomfortable. I'm hoping to make it to the beginning or middle of May. I keep forgetting to bust out the Prenatal Cradle. Awwww yeh! By the end of the day, my back aches a little and my belly is tight. Like, um, right now.

Soooo, I'm expecting you to be a(nother) big baby. Maybe even bigger than your brother. That's fine, dude. Keep growing healthy and strong. You might give your older brother a run for his money one day!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Happenings

Tikki has started to walk around and howl during the day. I think she knows Vader is gone forever. It's kind of sad, kind of annoying when Talon is sleeping but I think she's lonely. We used to think she was in kitty ecstacy not having to worry about Vader chasing her everyday but now, we're thinking she misses the companionship. More often, I could find her and Vader curled up on the bed together. We decided to adopt another cat. The trick is finding one that, as Jason says, is just as skittish and weird as she is so they don't fight. Jason called her Mommy's Little Princess for the longest time. She still is but I know I don't spend nearly the amount of time with her that I used to. I push her off me at night when she insists on sleeping on my pregnant belly which is really uncomfortable! She licks adhesive and photographs (grrr), she howls at 6:30am EVERY morning (even on the weekends) in the bathroom which echoes across the house, she nudges my face with her cold, wet nose after I've laid back down during the night and she licks every faucet she can find despite the fact she gets fresh water everyday in her bowl. She still follows me around and I try to give her kisses as much as possible to remind her she's still loved.

I wake up in the mornings usually by the alarm clock cat or Talon babbling, fascinated in his room. I lie there and I don't "feel" pregnant; my belly doesn't feel tight, my feet don't hurt, my back doesn't ache, I'm not annoyed by just stuff. Then I get a little kick. There you are, Little One. Good Morning! You move pretty much all night which I don't mind at all. I look forward to that first morning kick just as much as my first cup of coffee. I bought you a baby gift a couple days ago. A pair of Roobez 12-18 month slipper shoes for when you're walking. I won't make you wear Talon's hand-me-downs. He wore the hell out of his and now they're holey.

Talon has a cold now. Poor dude is coughing while he naps and I have been wiping green boogies from his nose with a soft blanket. Nap and bedtimes have been going soooo well with him. He gets a bath, brush teeth, give Mommy a kiss, 3 books with Daddy, then lights out. It's a routine that soothes us all. Bedtime is no longer a struggle or enduring even 10 minutes of crying. So restful!

We get to see Bonnie tomorrow. Yay! Give us both a little pop of mental and internal energy. I keep wondering how your birth will go. Will you come early? Will we really do a C-section on May 23rd? Will I teach classes as long as I hope? Will you be okay? (always the most important question...)

I am excited for Bonnie as I am in need of some focusing. I used the powers she taught me to expel some negative energy from my life a few weeks ago. It's really amazing how you can truly change how to feel and think through Reiki. I completely changed the energy around that incident by power of the mind. I couldn't change what happened but I could and did change how I thought about it. I took ahold of my power, a little tighter, and expunged that face. Those words. Eliminated the steroided-out coward from my line of vision, flinging it into a place of chaos that doesn't involve me anymore because that's only the possible place it can be living with the way they behaved. Another place of chaos and I assure you, the universe works there too.

I need to remember what I want to deal with and what I don't. Removing myself from situations and people that don't add positively to the mix will go. I try to rehash every few months to calibrate what's and who is really working. It all makes for a happier, healthier being. You'll meet Bonnie, Little One. You and Talon will hopefully both get to see her and use her as a resource. She changed the course of life for me and your Dad.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Work it, Dude, work it!

You're a mover and a shaker, Little One! I fell asleep to you last night then woke up to you as well. Do you move alllll night long? :) As you grow bigger, your punches and kicks are getting heavier. Keep it up, I can take it. 25 weeks tomorrow! Your big bro lifts up my shirt and says, "Ba-bee". He did that to Dads which was pretty funny. He did it to himself too! I don't think he still understands what he's in for but we're all ecstatic to meet you. Take your time and stay healthy. We're planning on seeing you around May 23rd..which is also your uncle's birthday! If you come a little earlier or a little later, that's okay too.

I love you! See you later!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Year of the Snake: 2013

My little Snake...

The sign of the Snake is considered the most intuitive, introspective and refined of all the animal signs. Snakes are cunning, intelligent and wise. Snakes are attractive, with a calm, cool and collected temperament. Snakes are competitive and work hard, while staying modest (so don't expect baby to brag about getting straight A's in school!).
A social butterfly
There are several different types of snakes in Chinese astrology, and 2013 is the year of the water snake. Expect to have a Chatty Cathy (or Chatty, um, Kent?) -- water snakes are known for their ability to socialize and make new friends. While they're very proud of their personal achievements, snakes are also thoughtful and considerate of others.
A dark side
While baby will be affectionate toward you, expect her to be less touchy-feely with strangers and friends. Snakes are known to give very little TLC to colleagues and business partners. Babies born in the year of the snake are proud, aware and, sometimes, a bit vain. Snakes dislike being interrupted, and they don't like failing. The snake possesses the intriguing characteristics of being exciting, graceful and dark.
Some likes and dislikes
Stock up on red, green and blue baby clothes, because snakes prefer those colors. And get some gear for arts and crafts, travel and outdoor stargazing, since snakes enjoy astrology, painting, touring and photography. They're also incredibly in touch with the world around them -- so if anybody has a sixth sense, it's your snake!
A successful future
Water snakes are lucky (especially when it comes to finances) and always seem to have money coming their way. And they're also self-motivated. Snakes are determined to get what they want! Water snakes in particular are great managers and very organized -- so you can look forward to baby being successful in business. They're also extremely intelligent and have a wealth of creative ideas. Potential occupations include scientist, potter, jeweler, astrologer, painter, dietitian or maybe even analyst.
A risk taker
Because water snakes are adventurous spirits and big risk takers, be sure to baby-proof thoroughly! And since snakes are known to dive headfirst into decisions without thinking them through, you might want to give extra lessons in budgeting and managing finances (they can't rely on luck forever) once baby's old enough to spend money.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Catching up.

I almost called this post "Bat shit crazy." I had titled it a couple weeks ago or so when I thought I was going to talk about the irrefutable instinct a mother feels, or should feel, to protect her child. Bat shit crazy would extend to that borderline animalistic extent you would go to in order to keep your child safe. I'd take a bullet, I'd punch anyone, I'd hunt down, I'd fight or flight depending on the situation that was best for my child. I felt that feeling, like a tide, rising up to my threshold. I felt like I was going into survival mode.

Baby Z, I talk to you and wait for you everyday to let me know you're okay because you know I'd go to any length to make sure of that. Same goes for your brother. I guess that's where the posting title came from. It's a absorbing feeling that I had never felt before; the kind of feeling that only comes when you're in charge of a defenseless little human.

The original title may have come around the time when I heard about Talon getting pushed down in the child center by a little girl about 6 months older than him. I found later after several minutes of pondering, Talon found that little girl and pushed her right back. Not exactly an appropriate solution to all conflicts...however, it was satisyfing to know that he wasn't going to put up with any crap! When you have no words to describe your feelings, what else can you do??

I put your little ultrasound picture next to the computer screen so I can see you more often. I feel you moving around all the time which cracks me up.

As for other details, you're measuring right on schedule. T always measured bigger but I was much puffier with him as well! All your tests came back with no concerns and we've tentatively planned your birthday for May 23, 2013. Talon's birth didn't happen at all the way we planned nonetheless a wonderful experience. I am happy to roll with any minor changes but I really hope things go relatively close to plan. I still worry that something could go wrong but I just remember what Bonnie said; you're here for the love and that helps me through.

SO excited to see you!