You're here for the love.

Dear Baby Zook #2,

We don't know what gender you are yet but we are all thinking girl. Am I correct? I knew with your brother right away. I just knew Talon was a boy. Bonnie said Talon came with such a powerful force to create the family that he had to make his presence known. Boy he did! I had a little harder time reading the energy. Regardless of your gender, you're all mine. People ask, "Do you want a boy or girl?" I think this question is completely ridiculous and a little offensive. What does it matter? Those stories I hear of people being disappointed, or even crying, because the gender of their baby is not what they'd hoped! It's repulsive.

I saw Bonnie last week. Bonnie, our Reiki Master, who has helped us through some really tough times these past few years. She centered me, removed the blocks, the pain, the anger. She brought your dad and I even closer. She helped bring Talon into our lives to create the family. And she saw you there, waiting, ready. Ready for love.

Your story begins a long, long, long, LONG time ago. Bonnie says you are a very old soul. You are a storyteller and were in no hurry to come into physical form but you were just on a journey to find love. On that day, you heard me feel in my gut I was ready for another baby. You came to me, knowing you'd find love. The wonderful surprise you found beyond my love was how much love was in our family. You were already in my heart, you saw my heart had space for Jason, for Talon, and for you. Your presence is softer and gentler. You could be a girl or just a very sensitive boy. 

I used to think, Getting pregnant was too easy this time, something could be wrong. Bonnie reassured me it's nothing like that at all. It's just my mental blocks are removed. It took your dad and me two years to get Talon. Getting pregnant with you was a matter of one time telling myself, and truly feeling, I'm ready. BAM! There you were!

I'm so excited to meet you. My due date is May 29, 2013. My birthday is May 22. I'm going to try and make sure you aren't born on the same day. I want for you to have your own day. Or maybe YOU want the same day? Well, if it's up to me, I'll give you your own day. But if you're going to make the decision, I certainly don't mind sharing our special days.

Love. You're here for the love.